Stupid excuses

How many stupid excuses do we daily use to make it alright to talk or criticise someone behind their back?

I was thinking about how frustrated we get with each other sometimes and it's so easy to get annoyed with someone right? So that makes it OK to moan right? WRONG!

I was also annoyed with myself for how easy it is for me to think badly about others. But what made it worse was when I realised how prejudiced I could be, without even knowing it. If I get upset with another christian, then afterwards I feel bad because I should love my fellow believer. I remember how annoyed I used to get at my none christian co-workers back in the UK, and my attitude at the time wasn't 'I should love them because God loves them', oh no. Don't get me wrong, I didn't consciensciously think 'They aren't a christian, so it's OK to get annoyed with them', but I didn't feel guilty the way I do when I'm annoyed with another christian.... how much of a horrible person am I?

AARRGGHHHH! I get so annoyed with myself!

Along the same topic, I've noticed how I make excuses for saying bad things or criticising others, by making it as an example. I truly need to learn how to KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT! WHEN WILL I EVER LEARN! I feel like I am constantly implanting both my feet in my mouth! And I say things then feel so bad about them, especially because half the time I say something, and then replay it in my head later and realise tht people could have taken it totally the wrong way or not totally understood my meaning. Not that that excuses me, I shouldn't have said anything in the first place.

So if ever I have offended you, with my big fat stupid mouth.... I AM TRULY SORRY!!!

I seriously think that God groans sometimes at the things that flow out of my mouth, and then gets annoyed at the unnecessary hurt and anxiety that has followed. I feel humbled at His graciousness towards me.

So work has been good this week. I am helping Kim run a Disorganised Sports club, and I really am loving the oppotunity to spend more time with kids, it really is a highlight of my week. We have some interesting characters attend, but they are all lovely kids. I got my new desk, it looks a lot more like a reception area now, it's so good! I was very excited! And some boxes are gone now that I have had a chance to unpack. The building itself really is looking good now, all that hard work is definately starting to pay off.

Something I have been very excited about the last 4 months is Spark People. I found this website called sparkpeople.com, basically it is a website set up to help you have a healthier lifestyle. So if like me you want to lose weight, they will help you. But I don't see this as a diet, I see this as being taught how to eat healthier, and look after myself better. Plus it's FREE! Even better. So if you want to be healthier, if you want to make sure you're eating the right things, or find some funner ways to get exercise please take a look at www.sparkpeople.com