The frost in our tree 

Our house in the winter 

The Brits and other stuff

Yet again I am painfully aware of missing something very British that I used to get excited over... The Brits, it's tonight, airing on British TV sometime in the next couple of days, and sometime in the next couple of months it will get aired here, but as we don't watch Much Music that often I probably will miss it. Plus Lindsay just isn't interested at all unless U2 are prominantly there.

Other beloved missed things are 'The Eurovision Song Contest' - a unique show that happens once a year, again a get together at Belmonts which always was hilarious. Any football contest, I know that it gets shown on some of the sports channels, but it's not the same as when you cram 15 people in to a tiny room and scream at the TV. Christmas TV in general, it's just not the same here, enough said. And the Olympics aren't the same either, obviously the things shown the most here are concerning Canada, so I miss some of the British stuff. Enough moaning for now I think...

So Lindsay surprised me on Friday with roses, since Friday was the anniversary of when he plucked up enough courage to bug me at 2am to tell me liked me... I was very excited. So yeah, 2 red roses and 2 white roses. Then we went out to the Saskatoon Inn for dinner and the chocolate buffet, it was great.

Yesterday was more low key, we had steak and jacket potatoe's for dinner with an ice cream cake for dessert, then we watched Braveheart.

I am getting pretty excited about our trip home in May. Work is flying by which means that we'll be going home soon... can't wait, I miss my family & best friend LOADS, so yeah VVVVVV Very excited. It'll be great to have the opportunity to go to All Saints and catch up on church life there. And maybe even visit some other friends and places if at all possible.

I just don't get it

I found something out this week that I just don't get. Now this is just me, please don't freak out on me, I just don't understand... Recently, people who I thought were super fired up christians have been really falling away, to the point where they just don't believe in Christ or God at all.

I have to admit to being baffled. Was everything they said lies, or was it just too hard, or do they still believe in God secretly but have opposition from friends/family/work.... ????

And just to clarify, these really were people that had strong roles in their christian community.

Are we as a community not doing enough or not explaining things well enough? I know that we have a responsibility to really learn more about God ourselves, but is the church putting people off. Are we not putting enough emphasis on a personal relationship with Jesus, that that is the most important thing, having a loving friendship with him and through him our heavenly Father. Are we forgetting that everything else flows from that? I know that when I am truly having a friendship with Jesus I want to be better, to love people more, to be kinder and more patient. It isn't just because I am told to, it is because I love Jesus. That doesn't mean that I am perfect, but it does mean I try harder and lean on Him more.

I kinda makes me sad when I hear that people have lost faith.

Friendship

I have to say that Love is definately one God's best idea's. And I'm not just talking about love in the marriage sense, but in the family and friendship sense too. 'I love you' can be the most abused and misused phrases out there, but that's usually in the dating sense. But do we say it enough to our friends and family?

Now most of you that know me, know that I am Miss Mushy, I am very sentimental... The Cheese Queen! I seem to go from normal "Hi, how are you?" to out and out mushy "Aww sweety, I love you!", friends back home used to laugh at me, but I'm hoping they knew that I did mean it.

I sometimes wonder how important friendships should actually be. I know that as a body of believers we should be encouraging, supporting and loving each other. But how much does God want us to put a big emphasis on it??? Do we rely too much on out friends, do we trust them more than God, do we listen more to their wisdom instead of Gods word? I guess these are all questions I'm challenging myself with.

One thing that I am learning though, is that I can't be friends with everyone, there just isn't time. I love making friends, but it is so hard to make time to see everyone, doesn't that just SUCK! I know that Lindsay & I both have drifted from people that are/were important to us, and I know that as we get older we will all change and we will just naturally not see as much of different people, but it still makes me sad.

Is it weird to grieve for lost friendships?

You've got the Love

I love this song by Source Feat. Candi Staton, it is such a classic, and recently I've heard an updated version on Radio 1, not a remake just a remixed version, and it is just AWESOME. But I love the lyrics, I can totally relate to them.

Sometimes I feel like
Throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you

Sometimes I feel like saying
Lord I just don't care
But you've got the love I need To see me through

Sometimes it seems that
The going is just too rough
And things go wrong No matter what I do
Now and then I feel That life is just too much
But you've got the love I need to see me through

Sometimes I feel like Throwing my hands up in the air
I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying Lord I just don't care
But you've got the love I need To see me through

Time after time I say oh Lord whats the use
Time after time I say this just won't do,
but Sooner or later in life the things you love you loose,
Just like before i know i'll call on you

Occasionally my thoughts are brave and friends are few
Occasionally I cry out Lord what must I do
Occasionally I call up Master make me new
You've got the love I need to see me through

Sometimes I feel like Throwing my hands up in the air I know I can count on you
Sometimes I feel like saying Lord I just don't care
But you've got the love I need To see me through